Metaphor and Love

A single metaphor can give birth to love 

I just found god

"I just found god...
There is a dream Hill far away and I am going
there one fine day " Waterboys

Unoticed

The thing I like about this blog is that I am anonymous yet so public and not private.
I do not think any one I know is particularly following my blog.

Genius in bedroom

Many geniuses are sitting in their living rooms right now and coming up with all these great ideas... What a waste...someone has got to create an institution around these ideas. We need to figure out ways how to use these ideas to  benefit our society, community, country...

I have said in my previous post that unless a group of people would come together and create an institution in order to  implement all these great ideas, they will die with their authors.
An institution will find the mechanism that will  be used to implement the content of this one great idea. we need to figure out how to turn "content" into  "mechanism."

How to win people

The first rule is love.
Be kind.
Don't judge
And don't state the obvious. 

Ingredients for a "happy" life.

Happy life 

 

Good Ideas

The world we live in is full of great ideas....many philosophers, thinkers, inventors, scientists, full time moms, full time dads, teachers, etc... pen down, or come up with all these brilliant thoughts, and ideas...the library is full of self help books, books on how to cope with daily stress,  books on how to deal with your anxiety, books on how to handle your stress at work, books on how to become more productive, books on how to deal with your procrastination, books on how to fix the economy, books and books and more books....Many books on the secret of  how to become a billionaire,  how to become a millionaire? forget about this one, it is easy to accomplish, it doesn't need a book ! A billionaire on the other hand?  you definitely need a book on it...

Many people  buy these books, few of them finish reading them....

The world is full of geniuses, who are coming up with amazing ideas, important ones, but they keep these ideas and their genus mostly to themselves.

All these good ideas would end up only good ideas or would die with the genius who penned or uttered them.

In other words good ideas are powerful , but good ideas do not change the world.

Change comes from institutions. This is to say that change only comes when a group of people come together and create an institution to  implement those great ideas.

to be continued.

Back on the Blog

Wow I can't believe that I haven't been on the blog for all this time. So much has changed since the last post. I am in Beirut right now. Elia has kids, Carla's have beautifully grown.

Here is the new challenge...I have to post on the blog regularly....Maybe  it will amount to something with time....It would be interesting to see all the physical, psychological, professional changes that will take place as we move on.

For this to make any sense, I need to be a regular on the blog. Although, I am not  good with commitments but It is worth trying.

Let's blog it !

I think ...

I think Lebanon should be defused and tamed completely...we should become like Monaco, or The Principality of Liechtenstein, we shouldn't even have an army. just an internal police for inner cities. because of His diversity and many different cultures, we should not have any involvement in contentious issues in the world. we can play a role being peacekeepers,by offering logistics for meetings and round tables for two foes or two countries fighting on a certain issue, without really having an opinion. We should even withdraw from the Arab League and I would go further to say from the UN.
We should be NEUTRAL....I am obviously talking about the government and not the people...the people should have the absolute freedom to voice its opinions and peacefully support any cause they choose to support....but the government should not be allowed to take any stand towards any issue that is happening around the world!!! Only thinktanks, newspapers, universities, independent thinkers, writers, poets, housewives, full time dads, anyone but the government...

Waterboys: she is so beautiful

SHE IS SO BEAUTIFUL

She is so beautiful
I've got no words to describe
the way she makes me feel inside
I'm flying solo,
as free and as light as a bird
yet I'd lay my wings down in a moment
to guard and comfort her

She is so beautiful
light-filled, loving and wise,
laughter dancing in her eyes
All my road is before me
and I never did plan on a wife
yet she's the most beautiful soul
I ever have met in this life

For she is like a song
She is like a ray of light
She is like children praying
Like harps and bells and cymbals playing
and she is like a wind
moving, soothing, bringing joy
and here am I destroyed
She is so beautiful
I don't know what I'm going to do when I leave
except grieve

Pine Ridge, Findhorn December 1992
On "Bring 'Em All In" and "The Whole Of The Moon"

Mary Jane

 

Mary Jane

I found god

"I found god

There is a dream hill [the little mount] far away

I am going there one fine day"

The Waterboys

Love

Love changes itself and not the beloved.

who cares if ...

IT IS WORTH LIVING FOR LEBANON !!!!

There are times in which I Question G-d's existence.
Destruction , fear and no one answers?
where are U when we call for U?
where are you, you Full of Grace?
you find me asking of HIM?
And i insist on my question , when i see powerless kids , when i see their childhood smashed,crushed,.... when i see a new generation growing with this fear , this fear's implications and consequences will manifest themselves even more later...
Do U care , when u see their sobbing eyes , they are crying out for help, for Ur help ?
Please answer them , Come and bring Peace , Bring your Grace !!!
I am sure , I am not the only one asking these questions,
these are not philosophical questions that i am posing . I am screaming these questions with a heartburn in days of darkness , days of difficulty !!!! days of War!!!!!!!
I am looking for meaning in this world , i am looking for meaning in this life
a meaning that exceeds , goes beyond eating , sleeping, working , making love, procreating and than death! or destruction in times of war!
No War is good , there is no such a thing as a righteous war....war only brings death , fear , confusion, hate, pain, affliction and pain and pain, even more pain....
Let us all unite against wars , against the possibility of war ,...
Please let us refuse , all the reasons given for this war, ....Honor, Dignity , and Pride mean nothing and they vanish ,when i see a child crying because of fear, because she can't play, because he is hungry , cold, lost, afraid, frightened ,....
Let us stop hating ....
Let us Love, there is nothing more valuable , and honorable and dignifying more than Love ,....Love builds , Love forgives, Love is beautiful, Love is meaningful ,
LET US GIVE LOVE A CHANCE<>
It is not only worth dying for Lebanon it is also worth Living for Him

  

Elia Wall Street and the Met 

NYC with My Elia

  

who is she?

I effectively do not know her...I only saw her picture ...we chat a lot....
I started thinking about her more often now...Her eyes are hazel green, her hair is fairly blonde, light skinned...I've got all of these from this one time she showed me her picture for less than a minute. She is very shy, timid, and reserved. She is smart, energetic, interested, concerned, generous, more or less she knows what she wants, she can manipulate, she is indirect, she remains silent when I compliment her, and if I press her for a reaction she answers "khajaltne".She is conservative, Christian,loves politics, journalism. She is more into historicism than history.
She is young, full of life, she's been around, she is well educated, she is cultivating her herself. One time she said something about my eyes, that I would do whatever it takes to hear her say it again.She is everything I grew up with. She is bourgeoise, she is all what I until recently would be looking for in a woman. She is what my ego has been formed to love and find beautiful, she has brought up to surface what I thought I do not love and what I do not call beauty anymore.
She is beautiful, she is slick, she is distinguished. She is the one I used to say about " the one I like, I really do not like", if I let myself go I like her...And if I don't am not sure ...I think I still like her,...She is all what I have been looking for in a partner and she is all what I thought I got over with. Who is she?

Old picture renewed 

Self

O, How much I miss you... Sometimes it feels or I feel I will never write again.
But everyday I think about "you" actually I meant about "me" which is "you".
In a philosophical sense I never stop thinking about "myself"...Not that I completely clearly understand all the intricacies, the whole meaning, I do not have complete comprehension or apprehension of the "self" as a word-Logos- that stands "byitself", "foritself"...Let alone "myself","me","I" as an entity as a "self", as a "consciousness" conscience of its "presence" and I say presence as a part of the bigger picture which is The Existence...In other words I stand "aware" that "I exist"..."I am"..."I another"...

O, Corner

My corner, O my cozy corner!!! One Day I will find you.
I will not stop looking for you. And when my feet get tired
and my will gets weaker to search for you.I will not give-up on you.
I will create you, I will ask a mason to build you for me.
I will ask my mason to construct you neither too large nor too small.
You won't have high ceiling neither,too much light nor too
much warmth nor cold. A desk I will have in you my corner.
Book shelves... I shall fill them with books...
Mostly dealing with the Human. The Homo sapiens as a part of nature...
human as a bios, Human as Zoe. Human as a part of the ecosystem...
a poet,an aestheticist...
human as a free thinker, as a philosopher, a historian, as a part of this vast cosmos.
I will get a rocking chair too,made of old wood, strong and solid...
I will rock and read, think,write, I will cry and Laugh, imagine, dream, create, delve,
I will look for inner insights,...I will know myself...I will free myself...My medium corner, you are my freedom. You are my refuge. You are my mystery.
yap, I will find you, O yes I will find you...
I want you to be an old ( meaning wise) looking corner. The mood, the ambiance, the spirit of you will be that of a heart hungry for knowledge. A heart yearning and crying to deal with his ambivalence. With my faith and my doubts that generates it.
I will ask questions...Why?, How?, When?, what?, where?.
My Corner get ready for history will be penned in you. My corner are u ready for this "honor"? (whatever that word means).
Most of the Time you, me and all the thinkers' books and essays, will hang-out together.
I will read their books and try to imagine how they look and draw them in my mind. Create a picture of them...And imagine and convince myself that they live-up to what they write...Or hope sometimes that s/he just wrote this line but doesn't really intend it or wish to be read by anyone...
Some visitors will be welcomed but this is not going to be a common practice. Because you are my corner...I will study ...In you I will become,...I will regress and I will grow...
I will not sleep in my corner but I may fall asleep sometimes...Because you are a place for me to wonder and ponder...Wine will be the only Spirit allowed...Music will be played
Poetry will be read...Ink will dry-up....

O, Corner 1

O, Corner, finally I sat down and penned what I have been growing in my mind about you. Here you are now,....You became a being, you exist my corner, you exist as an idea as a goal, as a thought... My heart feels you are there,.. My eyes sees, my imagination conceived you. My corner! You are part of a bigger house...Otherwise you seize to exist...You will not be a self anymore...by-yourself...You exist because there is a center,...You are a corner in the house...You are my corner...


Dear Love your picture will be in my corner!!! I promise that you will have a very important place in the heart of my corner. You will reside on my wise desk!!!
I will remember all the good days we had together...O, how you are still a part of me. You were real!!! I love, loved the way you loved me...We were meant for each other...I still love you...I am always looking for you...I look for you everywhere...Same as I look for my corner...The difference is that...My corner is an idea in my mind, my thoughts, one day my mason can build it for me.
But you my love...O you...The One made you, He created you with his Love , He formed your eyes, he shaped them, with such care...You are His masterpiece...
I still close my eyes and see how you wave your hands with the music like an expert, everytime you move your hand up ,I feel I am elated, I am touching the Most High, my heart would be beating hard and fast with Joy...For your hand to strike down and you see me confused but still full of hope....
All of this is happening in my corner...In my corner, I will remember, I will live with the nostalgia of your love,..The pain of love!!! Your Love, the pain of loving you...

Elia and Mary 

Khalil Marwan Youssef... 

The American Election

Well,..."You will say why in the world you have to say something about this election and you are not even a citizen?",....Let me start by adding I am not yet a Citizen!!!
The Election in the US is very Important for everyone in the World except if you live in a part of the world that is not directly or indirectly influenced by the US polices...And I find it very hard to find a Country that fits this definition...
A simple example would be for instance....Just to make my case why the administration's decisions of this Country have a great effect on what happens in the World? Well, the first example that comes to mind is very important to every country that is trying to have a nice education system...Trying to get some help from a great International Body like the UNESCO. Well, the US embargoed this Body for nearly 25 years...And this body's funding was cut off by 25% right away.

Well , back to the elections...To everyone's surprise and except Carl Rove's for sure the " Architect" as the president calls him. "Values" yes, believe it or not "values" were the number one reason why people voted for this president. People who are " Anti-choice right for women" people who are " anti- stem Cell research", people who are " Anti Gay marriage"....People who lost their jobs,still voted for this President!!! This should make all of us stop and think...About how things are ran in this country...All of us should stop and think and ask ourselves is this true? Is it true that a man or a woman who believes in all of these stuff and lost his or her job still voted for "W"? And you should ask yourself why?
Well...To me the answer is not too clear...And it can be argued...Let me start by saying I disagree with these guys about all these issues except the abortion issue,...Because if it is noble and of high value to walk on the side walk and not cut trees because they are in our way, if it is true that we should protect lives regardless of what they are in which form and in which stage, being it a fetus or a zygote...I believe in Protecting life no matter what...For the other issues it is outrageous I do not think we should even discuss them...I up-hold science and I am for the right of any two adults they want to live their lives the way they want too...Who am I to judge these people...I am no better...
My objection to "W" is simple...He is misleading us...He says he is pro-life...And Abortion rate is sky rocketing...He says he is pro family...Divorce is peaking,...He says he is against Terrorism...My question for him would be what did you do to protect the nuclear proliferation programs in the world? Why North Korea has 6-7 Nuclear Heads and it acquired them while you were watching? Why serious Hegemony over Lebanon is in its ugliest form on your watch? ( what happened to the claim of justice and the freedom is on the march thing?) why Iran has already all the ingredients to build a nuclear weapon on your watch? And why and why and why?... This President has spent 1 Billion dollars for this election...And he managed to mislead and convince lots of people that I admire and love ...People that I love and share with them the fundamentals of my faith...He mislead them to vote for him...May God bless us all and may He protect us form what will happen during these next four years...Mr. President please try to live up to these ideals you claim you have... I haven't seen them in your deeds...I only heard them in your talks...

We had a rough game that day,...Ouff 

I always had friends...that were tall and thin..this is a tribute to them... 

three minute before 2004 is n't that remarkable you see the ball is almost falling 

At the winery In Tamecula, CA...just Kidding

Wine Tasting in Tamecula- Riverside-CA 

Downtown San Diego-CA 

City Walk in Los Angeles,-CA... 

NYC -move forward the direction is like this... 

doesn't it sound familiar...I hope someone will listen one day 

NYC 

The man

War protest

it was cold but we were protesting the war 

Me

This is me  

conrad fischer 

... all the truth...well for sure not all of it...before you start saying "stop claiming you have it"...I do not have it but I feel it...everything in me says that it is The Truth...
The story about the King whose wedding was for seven days...you know the end no?
well, it makes sense to me ( at least)...and it should make sense to anyone else but sometime people can't get it...and this what is missing in the story...I think...why? why what? why some can't seem to feel it and get it like I did...like lots of others got it too...but I always say i hope that one day i won't loose it...i hope it won't hide...or it won't end-up covered and unseen by my loftiness, in a temporal bliss,...or it get confused in worldy busyness,... in unappreciation or neglect...

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Maximillian came to visit me on Sunday